On the 7th day of Christmas...

On the seventh day of Christmas, the Father gave to all -- 
  rest from our duties,
  the days of creation,
  the miracle of the loaves,
  the truth of the Gospels,
  prayers at Gethsemane,
  the veil torn in two, 
  and His Son to save us from our sins. 

Yesterday's blog was about the miracles of creation, but today's blog is about what God did when He was finished.

Genesis 2:1-3 NASB
2 Thus the heavens and the earth were completed, and all their hosts. 2 By the seventh day God completed His work which He had done, and He rested on the seventh day from all His work which He had done. 3 Then God blessed the seventh day and sanctified it, because in it He rested from all His work which God had created and made.

Confession time: I don't usually rest on the 7th day.  I've often done things I consider work -- wash clothes, fold clothes, do school prep work, etc.  And while I don't want to encroach on legalism, I suspect that I really should just be relaxing, feet kicked up, on the 7th day and preparing my body for the tasks of the days that lay ahead.

So last night, I cried about Benjamin until nearly 2am.  Without him there to kiss and hug for 2017, the new year's arrival felt hollow and empty.  This morning, it was beyond me to arise for church.  I was too exhausted physically and emotionally to rise, so I didn't.  I just laid in bed, alternating dozing with staring at the ceiling.

I'm not a "resolutions" type of person, but as I lay in bed trying to force myself to just get up, I said, "for this new year, I'm going to strive to give the LORD the first-fruits of my day instead of what I've been doing, which amounts to SOS "calls" and afterthoughts."  So, I arose and spent a couple of hours reading various devotionals (I got several for Christmas) and jotting notes in a journal.  If felt quite amazing to sit, spend time in God's word, and just mull over what it means to me and my season of life.

I then decided to see what the Verse of the Day was from my Bible app called You Version.  Right there, on the top of the screen was this verse:
 
Isaiah 43:19 NASB

19 "Behold, I will do something new,
Now it will spring forth;
Will you not be aware of it?
I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, 
Rivers in the desert." 

As I read this verse, the song "Your Great Name" by Natalie Grant started playing -- a song Benjamin would play over and over at times.

This verse plus that song felt like a sweet love touch from the LORD.  It felt like He said, "yes, I want you to come to Me first every day so I can order your steps.  Stop trying to do this on your own."  And the song was a reminder of my husband's faith in Jesus and the fact that one day I *will* see him again.  It's also pretty awesome that one of my devotionals is called Streams in the Desert.

I am so glad that I took the time to rest, pray, read the Bible, and study a few devotionals.  The LORD of all creation came to visit my broken heart.  If I had neglected the rest, if I had hastily arisen without giving the LORD my first fruits, I would have missed that sweet moment.

I wonder what tomorrow morning holds?  I can't wait!

Friend, I pray that if you are struggling to give the LORD the first fruits of your day as I am, you will find an extra measure of discipline to make it happen.  I pray that you find the right rhythm, the right method that connects to your thinking and learning style so that you can absorb the amazing words of the LORD.  And I pray that you gain amazing insights from spending time with Him that will buoy you through your days. 

*Graphic at beginning of page is from the website The Graphics Fairy.  All credit for the lovely image belongs to them.  

On the 6th day of Christmas...

On the sixth day of Christmas, the Father gave to all -- 
  the days of creation,
  the miracle of the loaves,
  the truth of the Gospels,
  prayers at Gethsemane,
  the veil torn in two, 
  and His Son to save us from our sins. 

Genesis 1 recounts the LORD's creation of the world.  Day by day, the LORD lovingly gives light and life to the earth and all the things of the earth.  Then, on the sixth day, He created man in His own image.  Of everything the LORD created, we are the only things He created in His image.

Consider this: I love cats far too much (I'm almost crazy cat lady material) and love the cats we have.  But in no way can I have a truly meaningful relationship with them.  I need to seek someone like me -- another human being -- to have a deep, thoughtful relationship.  The LORD created us in *His image*.  He *wants* to have a deep, meaningful relationship with us!  Out of all of creation, *WE* are the ones to whom he wants to draw close.  Isn't that wonderful?  

I mean, this is the same God that gave the stars names!  And he calls them by their name!  But, yet, He seeks a relationship with little ole' me.   Little messed up, flopping around aimlessly me. 

Isaiah 40:26 NASB

²⁶ Lift up your eyes on high
And see who has created these stars,
The One who leads forth their host by number,
He calls them all by name;
Because of the greatness of His might and the ^[a]strength of His power,
Not one of them is missing.

And even more wonderful is that Jesus was there in the very beginning when the LORD created it all.  Jesus came so that the relationship between the LORD and His people could be made through Jesus' atoning sacrifice at the cross.  In other words, Jesus did the legwork so you and I could have that relationship!  Before, man struggled for this.  Jesus fixed this with his loving sacrifice.

God loves us so much, He sent His Son to *die* for us just to make it possible to have a deeply personal, intimate relationship with Him!  He wants to draw close to you and me.  I'm not sure much more would need to be done to say, "God loves you and me."

Oh, how I pray today that your relationship with the LORD of all creation and His Son Jesus would deepen.  I pray that You would feel the richness of His love, the depth of His defense, the power of His strength.  I pray that you would simply be filled with a desire to learn more of Him, and spending time in His word. And, if you are reading this and don't know Jesus as your savior, please look at my faith story.  It can guide you to the way to have Christ as a part of your life! 

John 1:1-5 NASB --The Deity of Jesus Christ

1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. ² He was in the beginning with God. ³ All things came into being through Him, and apart from Him nothing came into being that has come into being. ⁴ In Him was life, and the life was the Light of men. ⁵ The Light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend it.

*Graphic at beginning of page is from the website The Graphics Fairy.  All credit for the lovely image belongs to them. 

On the 5th day of Christmas...

On the fifth day of Christmas, the Father gave to all -- 
  the miracle of the loaves,
  the truth of the Gospels,
  prayers at Gethsemane,
  the veil torn in two, 
  and His Son to save us from our sins. 

In all four Gospels, there is an account of Jesus feeding 5000 people with five barley loaves and two fish.  In one of the accounts, it states that that number 5000 referred just to the men.  Women and children were also fed!  After all had eaten their fill, the broken pieces were gathered into 12 full baskets.  Amazing.

Jesus took what seemed to be too little and turned it into more than enough.

I try to imagine the application of this to my own life.  I think of my talents and how weak, or uncoordinated, or foolish they feel.  I think of the dreams that the LORD has seemingly placed in my head and on my heart, and how inadequate I feel to accomplish them.  And, tragically, I've not moved at all on any of them.

But, then I read this and think, "if Jesus can multiply loaves and fish to overflowing, He can multiply my talents to overflowing as well."  And with that on my heart, I feel inspired to at least try.

Doesn't that make you feel good? To know that Jesus can take whatever you have -- no matter how small *you* think it is -- and make it more than enough for the task He's laid out before you?  

I pray that, if you feel the LORD calling you to a task but you feel too little for it, that you would simply give your "little" to the LORD so that He can do great things for the people He loves in and through you!  And I will also be praying that for myself, as I walk in a fog through my days.  Let the LORD use you!  Whatever you have, is quite enough.    And if you don't know what the LORD is calling you to, I pray that He will make His mission for you crystal clear, so that you can walk in His path. 

Luke 9:12-17 (NASB) -- Five Thousand Fed

¹² Now the day was ending, and the twelve came and said to Him, “Send the crowd away, that they may go into the surrounding villages and countryside and find lodging and get something to eat; for here we are in a desolate place.” ¹³ But He said to them, “You give them something to eat!” And they said, “We have no more than five loaves and two fish, unless perhaps we go and buy food for all these people.” ¹⁴ (For there were about five thousand men.) And He said to His disciples, “Have them sit down to eat in groups of about fifty each.” ¹⁵ They did so, and had them all sit down. ¹⁶ Then He took the five loaves and the two fish, and looking up to heaven, He blessed them, and broke them, and kept giving them to the disciples to set before the people. ¹⁷ And they all ate and were satisfied; and the broken pieces which they had left over were picked up, twelve baskets full.

*Graphic at beginning of page is from the website The Graphics Fairy.  All credit for the lovely image belongs to them. 

On the 4th day of Christmas...

On the fourth day of Christmas, the Father gave to all -- 
  the truth of the Gospels,
  prayers at Gethsemane,
  the veil torn in two, 
  and His Son to save us from our sins. 

The Gospels are Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John.  They give us such an awesome picture of Jesus' life from four different perspectives.  And what I love is that, according to a source I read, Luke specifically wrote his version with the Gentiles in mind!  Jesus didn't just come for the Jews -- He came for *everyone*.  Isn't that an amazing, comforting thought?

I read a little story somewhere about a man who was a pastor.  He dreamed of an alternate world where Jesus had not (yet) come for all of mankind.  He was overcome by the sadness he felt because the Hope of the world had not given the greatest sacrifice of all.  There was no hope.  

I thought about that story for a long time.  I cannot imagine a day without Jesus.  I know I'm not the best, and I often drift, especially while grieving, but when I reach out for Him He's there to give me a hand up.  He's there to correct me, guide me, and hear my pleas.  He loves me no matter how much I flop around uselessly.  I'm not sure I could walk through another day in an uncertain world without the absolute certainty of Jesus' presence and saving grace.  

I pray that you can find peace and comfort in Jesus today.  I pray that, if you feel low, He lifts you up.  I pray that, if you are celebrating, that He provides the cheer.  I pray that, if you feel lost, He guides you onto His path to walk with Him.  Wherever you are, Jesus can come to you.  You cannot run so far away that He has no idea where you are.  He always knows.  He forgives when we ask.  He loves unconditionally.  You cannot go wrong with Jesus.  I pray you find that place in His resting arms today.

John 16:33 (NASB)

³³ These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.”

*Graphic at beginning of page is from the website The Graphics Fairy.  All credit for the lovely image belongs to them.

On the 3rd day of Christmas...

On the third day of Christmas, the Father gave to all -- 
  prayers at Gethsemane,
  the veil torn in two, 
  and His Son to save us from our sins. 

Before His crucifixion, in the Garden of Gethsemane, Jesus prayed about the upcoming task for Him.  In His prayers, He deferred His feelings on the task to that of the Father's will.  What an amazing prayer pattern Jesus defined for us here!

When Benjamin and I found out in January 2016 that his chemo was probably no longer effective, I felt completely defeated.  By March 2016 the ineffective chemo was verified and we knew that Benjamin was going to succumb to cancer.  There were so many struggles with this revelation and I eventually landed on "let's pretend it isn't happening and God will just heal him."  Not the most useful of decisions, I must say, but it's who I am.

In July 2016, Benjamin ended up in the hospital with a bowel blockage -- a common problem for colon cancer patients, apparently.  I thought he would die in the hospital, and I suspect Benjamin thought it too, though neither one of us spoke it.  He was admitted on a Friday and every day until Tuesday or so was pure pain and misery for him.

Then on Wednesday, Benjamin seemingly perked up.  That night, we sat up for a long time -- until well after 2am -- with our Bible apps open (I hadn't had the presence of mind to bring my Bible to the hospital) discussing Scripture.  Ben said, "I accept God's will for my life, but I wish I could have the assurance that all of this pain and suffering has a purpose."

I said, "I really believe God called me to blog about this journey with cancer, but I'm having all kinds of second thoughts about.  I wish He could reassure me too."

Not long after we each said that, the gastroenterologist whom Benjamin would be using came in and introduced himself. We proceeded to talk about faith, the LORD's work in the world, and the LORD's work in our lives.  He looked at Benjamin and flatly said, "you cannot see it now, but your suffering has a purpose."  He then went on to say that our lives and way the LORD was working through this storm was being watched by others and was important.

After he left, Benjamin said, "I've never felt the Holy Spirit move like that before."  I said, "neither have I."  Not once in all that time did a nurse come in and interrupt.   The LORD of all creation visited our hospital room in the person of the Holy Spirit to answer our questions through the words of another believer.

As Benjamin's life wound down and I lost the man he was to someone consumed by massive dosages of medications, I tried to repeatedly recall that night in the hospital.  God's will for Benjamin's life and His will for our family did not align when my personal desires.  It reminded me of Jesus' prayers that focused on the LORD's will for a situation.  It also reminded me that Jesus knows exactly what I'm feeling.

I deeply appreciate the prayers of the Garden of Gethsemane in the Bible.

Matthew 26:36-46 NASB -- The Garden of Gethsemane

³⁶ Then Jesus *came with them to a place called Gethsemane, and *said to His disciples, “Sit here while I go over there and pray.” ³⁷ And He took with Him Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, and began to be grieved and distressed. ³⁸ Then He *said to them, “My soul is deeply grieved, to the point of death; remain here and keep watch with Me.”
³⁹ And He went a little beyond them, and fell on His face and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from Me; yet not as I will, but as You will.” ⁴⁰ And He *came to the disciples and *found them sleeping, and *said to Peter, “So, you men could not keep watch with Me for one hour? ⁴¹ Keep watching and praying that you may not enter into temptation; the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.”
⁴² He went away again a second time and prayed, saying, “My Father, if this cannot pass away unless I drink it, Your will be done.” ⁴³ Again He came and found them sleeping, for their eyes were heavy. ⁴⁴ And He left them again, and went away and prayed a third time, saying the same thing once more. ⁴⁵ Then He *came to the disciples and *said to them, “Are you still sleeping and resting? Behold, the hour is at hand and the Son of Man is being betrayed into the hands of sinners. ⁴⁶ Get up, let us be going; behold, the one who betrays Me is at hand!”


*Graphic at beginning of page is from the website The Graphics Fairy.  All credit for the lovely image belongs to them.

On the 2nd day of Christmas...

On the second day of Christmas, the Father gave to all -- 
  the veil torn in two, 
  and His Son to save us from our sins. 

Jesus' sacrifice at the crucifixion allows His followers to come boldly to the throne of the LORD of all creation.  I found this wonderful explanation of the significance of the torn veil from the website Answers In Genesis. Rather than try to paraphrase, I'll just give it to you here.  Please follow this link to see the original discussion from which this information was obtained.  :)

The book of Hebrews goes into great detail about the superiority of Christ and His ministry as High Priest when compared to the Levitical system and its priests. “This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast, and which enters the Presence behind the veil, where the forerunner has entered for us, even Jesus, having become High Priest forever according to the order of Melchizedek” (Hebrews 6:19–20). The writer of Hebrews explained that Jesus has gone “behind the veil” for us, to serve as our High Priest. The tearing of the temple veil signified the start of Christ’s ministry as High Priest. We no longer need to go through a regular priest to have access to God. We can go directly to Christ who now serves in that role. 

In the Levitical system, the high priest offered daily sacrifices for the sins of the people (Hebrews 7:27):, and once a year would go behind the veil to offer a sacrifice in the “Holy of Holies” (Hebrews 9:3, 7, NASB). The writer of Hebrews goes on to express the supremacy of Christ as our High Priest:

But Christ came as High Priest of the good things to come, with the greater and more perfect tabernacle not made with hands, that is, not of this creation. Not with the blood of goats and calves, but with His own blood He entered the Most Holy Place once for all, having obtained eternal redemption. (Hebrews 9:11–12)

Isn't this awesome?  Christ came so that we can come to the Father through Him.  We can have a loving and deeply personal relationship with the LORD of all creation!  We can bring our cares and concerns before Him without fear, knowing that He'll address our needs according to His plan for our lives.  I can't think of better news than that!

Today, I pray that you encounter the loving grace of the LORD of all creation.  He loves You so much and He wants to be a part of your life, providing you with guidance and supplying your needs.  He wants a personal relationship with you through His Son Jesus.  I pray that you find the time to enlarge this relationship so that you too can come boldly to the throne!  I pray you feel this great blessing in a mighty way.

Matthew 27:45-51New American Standard Bible (NASB)

⁴⁵ Now from the sixth hour darkness fell upon all the land until the ninth hour. ⁴⁶ About the ninth hour Jesus cried out with a loud voice, saying, “Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani?” that is, “My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?” ⁴⁷ And some of those who were standing there, when they heard it, began saying, “This man is calling for Elijah.” ⁴⁸ Immediately one of them ran, and taking a sponge, he filled it with sour wine and put it on a reed, and gave Him a drink. ⁴⁹ But the rest of them said, “Let us see whether Elijah will come to save Him.” ⁵⁰ And Jesus cried out again with a loud voice, and yielded up His spirit. ⁵¹ And behold, the veil of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom; and the earth shook and the rocks were split.

*Graphic at beginning of page is from the website My Messy Manger.  All credit for the lovely image belongs to them.

On the 1st day of Christmas...

On the first day of Christmas, the Father gave to all -- His Son to save us from our sins.  

I pray that today you find yourself surrounded by the love of the Savior and that He will wrap you in His comforting arms. He has shown up in such a mighty way for our family in this holiday season -- in the midst of crippling sadness -- and just loved on us. I pray you have such an encounter as well, with Him meeting you at your specific point of need. May you experience an encounter with Him so powerful, you don't ever want it to end. 

With love from our family -- Kimberly, Matthew, Zachary, Aaron, and Rachel and our two beloved members in heaven, Benjamin and Caitlyn. 

John 3:16-17 NASB
16 “For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send the Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world might be saved through Him. 

P.S. Yes, I know that the 12 Days of Christmas generally start on Christmas day, but I was mired in grief yesterday and thus unable to truly share. I pray you can still enjoy my "song".

P.P.S. I originally only posted this on Facebook. But I then decided to post it here as well.  Keeping a record is easier here than Facebook, plus more folks can see this for those whom the LORD leads to be here. 

*Graphic at beginning of page is from the website The Graphics Fairy.  All credit for the lovely image belongs to them.